I dreamt last night that I died and when I came to, i was floating above the earth looking
down on its splendor against the backdrop of space. So blue and brown with green patches and white wisps of cloud scattered like frost on a window. A great spirit appeared. No name, no denomination, just an impressive bright, colorful glowing existence in the shape of a human. And this spirit told me that because I endured so much shit in my life (his words) and that I never returned evil for evil and always had a loving heart, that I could live in any dimension, place or time I desired forever and in peace.
I asked if everyone was given this choice and the spirit replied “No”
“What happens to them?” As I looked down to the sapphire colored orb curiously.
“Their body returns to the earth when they die” was the curt answer
“What about their spirits?” I inquired.
The being just laughed, “That isn’t for just anyone. Your time on earth has been confused with religious teachings. Which has caused mankind’s suffering. YOUR suffering, and hence, why we are where we are at this moment.’
I asked, but will I be alone?
He replied that I could take anyone I loved. Well, considering how many people and especially close family over my time on this earth had done me wrong and hurt me, I figured ‘this should be quick and easy’
I immediately chose 2 of my best friends (ensuring of course that they could wait until they died of natural causes. I mean, I’m not going to be selfish and end their live’s now).
My heart began to flutter and I thought of my 2 daughters. So much pain they have caused
My two girls Katlynn and Jasmynn wearing their “Bible Convention” tags
me for shunning me for the crime of not believing in their mother’s fairy-tale religion and yet here I hold in my hand the power to ensure them an afterlife of happiness and peace with me in a legit great beyond. “My daughters need to be with me”, I cried out.
But then my heart fluttered again, and tears almost welled up as I considered that, their happiness would include their loved ones too, even though, some of those loved one’s of my daughters had been directly responsible for my persecution during my time on that big blue rock. The Great Spirit asked me if I understood this “These are and will include some of the people who because of their beliefs in life and eternity caused you great heartache and pain and continued to treat you as an evil one because you didn’t believe in their Jehovah. Are you absolutely sure you want to include your daughter’s loved one’s?”
I didn’t even hesitate knowing full well that this would include their mother – my ex wife and her mother as well. I held back a shudder knowing this and continued, “How could I expect my daughters to be truly happy if their eternal afterlife didn’t include the ones they
I am actually shunned in real life by my children. I had this sign up on Hwy #4 before Jasmynn started to shun me because of family/religious pressure
loved as well?” …..I paused for a second and said, “And the loved one’s of my 2 best friends. They need to be there as well” I started to think of that part of the Bible where Abraham was pushing his luck with God by trying to save a few people from the doomed city of Sodom and laughed to myself thinking of how I didn’t believe in that shit and yet this surreal experience happening right now just proved that version of events to be highly skewed if not relatively possible.
“And my father”, I added “He died some years ago but is it possible he can be there?”
The spirit answered quickly “of course!” But then cautioned again “Remember, he is the one who effectively raised you in the cult that ended up causing you so much pain. The cult that turned your own children against you and held you back from your full potential growing up. The cult that obviously had the story of life and death wrong or you and I would not be having this discussion”
The tears flowed as I just shook my head and cried out emphatically “No! He HAS to be there!”
As I collected my composure, I started to ponder …having known some of the people I was saving from no afterlife to one of eternal happiness and just how stubborn they could be, I had to ask “What happens if I save them, and they return to their foolish ways of hate because they can’t let go of their religious training and traditions? ”
And as the words were barely out of my mouth the great entity began laughing again and said “Now you understand the great dilemma of being a god!” And just disappeared in a mist-like vapor with the laughter echoing in the vast reaches of space.
I hovered there alone and asked myself “was I just punked? Like, is there a hidden camera around and the spirit will turn out to be Aston Kutcher who jumps out from behind the moon pointing at me as he doubles over in laughter? Is having the power of life and death in your hands all just a big joke because no matter how much you love someone or care for them, they can still shit on you?”
After a few moments of looking around at the wonders of the universe and taking it all in, I decided to roll the dice. I yelled out to the laughing entity not knowing whether or not I was going to be heard at all, “So how does this work? Do I push a button or something? ”
And in that instant I woke up, and wrote this experience down before it became a lost memory forever ….or is it? ……
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